Monday, March 19, 2012

sewing...

Caroline wants to learn to sew and hopefully this book will inspire her! She loves anything Asian and is really into some Asian drama, just for the clothes. I hope we actually follow through and try something! Spring starts tomorrow (and it's also Nathaniel's birthday) so there's a lot of excitement about what's coming up and what we can accomplish. The weather has been wonderful. I am much better when I can have some fresh air in the house. The ground is warm and ready for plants already. I'm helping out tonight at our Parish Renewal Services. I also have something I'm planning and it's really very huge-- well, really huge to me. And it's not anything to do with art so this is a brave step. I'm trying to be true to myself and not compare myself to others, because it's a little different and not what I'd call "the beaten path". I'll let you know when it's a go!

I've been writing and rewriting this post because I wanted it to come out right-- it is really easy to fall into comparing myself with others. I read blogs and wish that I was more like that person or had accomplished a lot more and then it kind of spirals into feeling badly about myself. There are definitely things I wish I could have done differently but we do what we do at the time, because that was what we knew. That's what my mom always tells me. If I had it to do all over again, I might have home-schooled, or raised chickens or sewed all the kids' clothing. I might have tried to travel more or maybe publish a book. I have to remember that all the blogs we read where it seems that life is so perfect, is a lot like our own lives-- there are ups and downs and trials for each one of us. My favorite blogs are the ones that are real. Sometimes I tend not to write about the problems as much because it's natural to highlight the good stuff. I hope you realize that-- there are ups and downs to my life and everyone else's. So when I'm comparing my life to what others are doing, then I just need to remember that life is a challenge for everyone. And I can look forward to making some new happy things happen!


"It is not how much you do, but how much love you put in the doing." Mother Teresa

4 comments:

Di said...

Beth - great post! Don't compare (we all do it I know!) You are one of the most inspiring people - you followed your dream, you weren't afraid to admit when it didn't work out, you showed your children that it's good to dream, it's great to try but that it's also ok if things don't always work out - all great life lessons! You are an inspiration to your family (and to me!) You are doing one of the most important jobs ever - raising great kids who will go out there and do great things too - even if it's just raising their own great kids. And hey - I am definitely not perfect - I give an example of my life on my blog - the good bits usually - in that respect it isn't always an honest representation of how things are - that i am not particularly confident in my own abilities, that my mum has been sick and scared and I have done my best to support her, that I am sometimes sad that i will probably never have kids and sometimes find it hard to socialise with friends who have kids....not because I don't love their kids but because sometimes it just hurts..... but i always try to grab life with both hands -- and sometimes it works and other times I just need to take some time out from life and chill at home........good lessons for us all to learn in your post!

Becky said...

Hey, thanks for the tease!!

Bethany Hissong said...

Diane-- you are a big inspiration to me and I LOVE your posts! I learn so much about the world through you!!!

jojo caramel said...

I agree with diane
When I read your post Beth, I'm exactly in the same feeling. The new thing today with internet for an artist, is that you see so many things, so many talents... In one way, it helps, because we create better when we see many many things, visit museums... and in the other hand... (for my point of view, I feel myself personnaly so little... ) it does stop me from doing things sometimes :D
You have enormous talent Bethany and you should not doubt! I tell you!

Sometimes I think I might have or I should home-schooled as well, but there is nothing compare of being with friends, and other adults at school...

I wish Monsieur Nathaniel a wonderful Birthday!
and I can't wait to see Caroline's new handmade clothes

I love that quote
xo