My first assignment for the illustration class I'm taking is about sight and we were asked to take out our cameras and capture a subject from 7 different perspectives, to base our illustrations from. I love taking my camera on my daily morning walks with Elle, who was the most available subject. Yesterday morning was a dark, storm-impending day and the colors seemed more neutral and ready for winter...



This morning we are having lots of wind, but the sun is shining brightly and moving the clouds away... letting my favorite colors-- red, orange and golds-- look so brilliant! Of course, many of the leaves are now on the ground.




So here is Elle: 1. straight on 2. from the side 3. from far away 4. from up close 5. from above 6. from below 7. moving... and a couple more: 8. another close up ... I loved the texture of her hair versus the texture of the brush behind her 9. I thought the shadows were cool! Now I need to do the drawings... or maybe watercolor... I'm not sure which yet!
I woke up feeling sort of defeated today... I found out the Yudu materials for silkscreening are no longer carried by ACMoore or Michael's and finally I found some on amazon.com but then they hadn't shipped by the time I went to bed. Last evening I went to a party at a friend's home, of all decorating items and both of my good friends here have gorgeous homes. Mine... well, I realized I am not good at decorating which really bothers me considering I'm supposed to be creative. And then going through my closet, it's a schizophrenic selection of clothes! I started feeling like a failure from every angle. I just read "Outliers" by Malcom Gladwell, all about success, and I had realized that there have been certain reasons why my career has not been that successful, which were partly out of my control, but I also realized that I could be working harder. So I've been beating myself up about that. I started working out to Tracy Anderson's Method which is challenging but in the past I've worked out hard and not seen a lot of results, and lets face it, I'm only getting older. But then last night reading "Born to Run" (which I highly recommend), it points out that age has nothing to do with it. It is JOY. Well, serendipitously, Elsita posted about taking the positive road this morning, and I realized that maybe all of this would be a lot better if I approached things in my life with joy instead of just striving, like all those runners who fail to make the finish time. It's about the journey of it all, isn't it? So pulling out my camera this morning, it reminded me of how much I love to really see things and how much delight there is in the different colors and shapes and lines of things out there in nature right now. And then to top it off, I got an email confirming that my emulsion sheets had shipped and I should receive them today, so fingers crossed, I will be able to silkscreen 16 t-shirts before the weekend comes! (as long as I don't mess any up!!!).
So... (despite my very sore body)... I am going to chose to take the positive road today (the sun just shone in my studio window as I typed that!) and add a little more joy around here. And especially try not to beat myself up anymore. Back to work! ;)