Wednesday, September 26, 2007
I have a hard time showing people charity when I'm upset. I realized this today on my morning walk. Nathaniel's math teacher marked a test incorrectly, giving him a low score, which surprised us as it is his strongest subject and her mistake caused more discouragement than need be. But it was just a mistake. I, of course, felt I needed to comment on the test which I was required to sign, that she needed to grade his papers correctly and change his grade and go over the one word he obviously didn't understand...blah, blah, blah. I am a teacher so maybe I hold them up to the kind of expectations I have for myself. But then I also know teachers have a tremendously difficult job, wearing so many hats a day...it's amazing more mistakes aren't made! We ended the day on a low note... the house party was great, but my son's day at school was terrible... bad behaviour which was surprising, bad test score and a fight with a friend-- not at all like my smiling, happy go lucky kid who left that morning. After the sensitive lecture and sending him off this morning, discouraged (both of us) I'm really upset because I don't know what to do. His math teacher called, and we had to go over why I wrote that note (which embarressed Nathaniel)....ugh. So I'm focusing on charity today: with others and maybe with myself because I can't stop crying. Motherhood is not that easy and it's hard to fix problems for your children even when it breaks your heart!